A DIFFERNT CHILD
A different child,
People notice
There's a special glow around you
You grow
Surrounded by love,
Never doubting you are wanted;
Only look at the pride and you
In your mother and father's eyes.

And if sometimes
Between the smiles
There's a trace of tears,
One day
You'll understand.
You'll understand
There was once another child
A different child
Who was in their hopes and dreams.
That child will never outgrow the baby clothes
That child will never keep them up at night
In fact, that child will never be any trouble at all.
Except sometimes, in a silent moment,
When mother and father miss so much
That different child.
May hope and love wrap you warmly
And may you learn the lesson forever
How infinitely precious
How infinitely fragile
Is the life on earth.
One day, as a young man or woman
You may see another mother's tears
Another father's silent grief
Then you, and you alone
Will understand
And offer the greatest comfort.
When all hope seems lost,
You will tell them
With great compassion,
"I know how you feel,
I'm only here
Because my mother tried again".

Carlee's First Christmas!

Carlee's First Christmas!
What a special time for us.
Carlee had so many people to go see this Christmas. So many people who love her. We are so thankfull!

Good Bye 2009

What a wonderful year it has been.

A year ago today I took a pregnancy test, it was negative...or at least thats what it looked like at first. I tossed it into the trash, knowing it was really too early to take anyway. Hours later I peeped into the trash at the negative stick and to my surprise I saw the slightest hint of a positive sign! I couldn't believe my eyes. Could I really be pregnant? Was 2009 going to be our year? It felt right, I had butterflies. The excitement was hard to contain and so were the fears.

We kept the news to ourselves and celebrated the New Year by going to First Night, a night full of events and fun in downtown Springfield. I remember it was a freezing cold night. I couldn't wait to get back home to get to bed and wake up to take another test. Sure enough, on New Years Day we had another positive pregnancy test. This time, it was clear...I was pregnant!!!!!!!

2009 was our year, finally we had good news! We were expecting a healthy little girl in September. I thought at any moment the rug would be pulled out from under me and the docters would have the "bad news" waiting. I was wrong, she came September 2...healthy and strong. She is my girl, my treasure. I am so proud of her. So, to me she is a year old today. Amazing, isn't it? Happy Birthday baby girl, we love you so much!

Carlee is 3 Months Old!

Wow! I can't believe it, Carlee is 3 months old today.

I am simply in love with my little angel. She is my world!

Carlee has grown so much and is doing so many things. She has always tried to sit up, making this cute little face when she is doing it. Now she will hold my fingers and pull herself up and sit with a little help. She smiles and coos, silently laughs and the other night she chuckled! She will reach out to touch things purposefully, like her bumper or the couch. I am so proud of her and everything she is.

Happy 3 month Birthday baby girl!