Carlee's First Christmas!

Carlee's First Christmas!
What a special time for us.
Carlee had so many people to go see this Christmas. So many people who love her. We are so thankfull!

Good Bye 2009

What a wonderful year it has been.

A year ago today I took a pregnancy test, it was negative...or at least thats what it looked like at first. I tossed it into the trash, knowing it was really too early to take anyway. Hours later I peeped into the trash at the negative stick and to my surprise I saw the slightest hint of a positive sign! I couldn't believe my eyes. Could I really be pregnant? Was 2009 going to be our year? It felt right, I had butterflies. The excitement was hard to contain and so were the fears.

We kept the news to ourselves and celebrated the New Year by going to First Night, a night full of events and fun in downtown Springfield. I remember it was a freezing cold night. I couldn't wait to get back home to get to bed and wake up to take another test. Sure enough, on New Years Day we had another positive pregnancy test. This time, it was clear...I was pregnant!!!!!!!

2009 was our year, finally we had good news! We were expecting a healthy little girl in September. I thought at any moment the rug would be pulled out from under me and the docters would have the "bad news" waiting. I was wrong, she came September 2...healthy and strong. She is my girl, my treasure. I am so proud of her. So, to me she is a year old today. Amazing, isn't it? Happy Birthday baby girl, we love you so much!

Carlee is 3 Months Old!

Wow! I can't believe it, Carlee is 3 months old today.

I am simply in love with my little angel. She is my world!

Carlee has grown so much and is doing so many things. She has always tried to sit up, making this cute little face when she is doing it. Now she will hold my fingers and pull herself up and sit with a little help. She smiles and coos, silently laughs and the other night she chuckled! She will reach out to touch things purposefully, like her bumper or the couch. I am so proud of her and everything she is.

Happy 3 month Birthday baby girl!

Just For Fun

Carlee Nicole

10 weeks old
Just the two of us!

She was very sleepy, poor thing has such a hard time staying asleep.

In Memory of Caelyn and Bella & in Honor of Madelyn

June 27, 2007

Caelyn's 2nd Birthday

We Miss you baby girl.

When Carlee was about one month old we took her to visit Caelyn's grave. Two years ago I couldn't imagine life could be good again. As I look at my sweet Carlee Iam amazed by her, can't believe she is here and well. She is my special girl, my joy, my life. In no way does she replace our Caelyn and Bella, they will always hold a special place in our hearts. We will never take her for granted and will always thank God for her. I feel like the most blessed person in the world. The last few years of our lives have been so hard and so trying, but God has brought good to our trials.

He has brought wonderful friends into our lives who have been through similar situations. He has shown us true love through our babies. He has shown us how precious life is and how quickly life can be taken away and to live every day to the fullest, enjoy every moment.

I have recently learned of another slosangel, Caelyn and Bella's newest playmate in Heaven. Madelyn was born August 29 of this year. She lived only a few hours. To learn more about this sweet little girl visit http://heathermohr.wordpress.com/ .

Carlee is now asleep in my arms while I type wth one hand. She is my sweetheart.

Two Months Old

November? Could it really be November? Yes, it really truly is. Wow, my baby girl is two months old! She is growing so big. 13 pounds already! She is smiling and cooing. Her best times are in the morning after a good long sleep. She is sleeping much better at night.

Carlee with Mommy

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Carlee with Daddy

We took her to see a GI specialist yesterday for her reflux. He basically said to keep doing what we were doing and if she doesn't get better in a month to call him. The next step would be surgery and if she can out grow it we do NOT want surgery! She is on the strongest medicine, Prevacid two times a day and it seems to be helping, although she still cries the majority of the day and is having "episodes" of screaming at least once a day. Those "episodes" have decreased in length and frequency, which is why I believe the prevacid might be working. I guess it is even hard for a practiced doctor to determine what is wrong with her. He said it could also be colic on top of the AR causing her to cry. He explained to us that colic does not always mean just 3 hours a day, it could mean all day.

Here are some cute pictures of Miss Carlee...

Cutie Pie


Honey Bunny

Cherish Every Moment

Because it goes by so fast!

Acid Reflux

Carlee One Month Old!

Well it has been five weeks and I think we have finally gotten Carlee diagnosed correctly. She has acid reflux. It is so clear to me now, why didn't I see it before? I feel horrible that for five weeks she has been in pain, crying constantly, trying to tell us something was wrong. I knew something wasn't right the first night in the hospital when she cried all night long. I remember hearing her spit up in her mouth and swallow it (silent reflux)...that was the beginning of it all. I know babies cry, but she was crying excessively and unconrolably with big tears, her voice became hoarse, she coughed often, and had hiccups 3-4 times a day. She has almost all of the symptoms except weight loss and an adversion to eating. Infact she wants to eat more when she is in pain and then it makes her worse, she is also in the 90th % for her weight. So hopefully the medicene we started her on will start to work, although I worry she isn't keeping enough down...she keeps spitting up when I give it to her. This morning though has already been different. She actually laid in my lap for a while looking around without crying!!!!!! Then she ate and fell asleep without crying for 2 hours afterward wanting more to eat. I hope this is the beginning of the healing process. Thanks again April for your advice, we love you!